im feeling very sad, cause this holiday makes me and my friends seems to be very far away. they got all the gatherings or whatever i was unable to go. im really feeling very bad. haix. and plus, im also sad about something, which bothered me quite long although it appears to be settled. i finally know the answer but i think its better than what i have thought. but its still.... i know u will know that im talking about u. im not blaming u or what. im just blaming myself. i may be too selfish at the point of time. i dont know, i really dont know.
there were so many things happening and im so sad. i also dont want work on weekends cause i know this will happen. but the pay is too good. $7/h. but earning $ is definitely not more important than friendship. friendship is my number 1. actually my number 1 is friendship and kinship. both are as important. i cant lose any one. haix. there are too many things happening. im really so sad. feeling very horrible now. plus now i understand why sometimes meikei dont want eat lunch le. cause i last fri, sat and sun never eat dinner. not because i not hungry but because no mood. like i say, friendship is more important than earning $ and im feeling horrible now cause i miss the gathering. u people may find that it is no big deal but for me, its definitely a big deal. i guess no one can understand how i feel. but i just cannot do anything. i really feel very helpless..
i think i havent mention this. this is a good news. im going genting next wed, thur and fri. haha.
